just different...

its amazing how words or the lack thereof can make the biggest impact.

i thought i was so confident and ok with being different looking...

but when you come to a country where people are just blunt even if its rude you come to realize your maybe not as sure about yourself....

maybe its the language barrier and im twisting things because their english is as choppy as my german

but maybe its true.

and i feel like i'm embarassing my family now too...
they had such high expectations and told all their friends about me..

i felt like they were expecting megan fox...

and then dani showed up.

"i thought models were supposed to be pretty"

ouch.

modeling is just a hobby..not something i do because i'm vain or think im hot.
i just love the art.

im sorry to be such a disappointment